Sunday, October 24, 2010

Am I going to end it again?

So here I am again, ready to end it
Throw it all away and forget those shit!
I hate this happening!
To my pain and burden you are adding!

I thought you were someone new
All so real and oh so true!
Yet you're a demon in disguise
What you did took me by surprise!

I'm hanging now.Forgive and forget?
I don't think so...Not yet
Or should I say,Forgive him and forget him
Let's see.For now, everything is on dim

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Last day of being 14

Today is October 21,2010.... This is going to be last the last "writing" i will be writing as a 14 year old teen. Tomorrow i'm going to be 15 and that's another chapter in my life. I have to make sure that i'll enjoy every moment of everyday.

SO SAD!!!
SO WEIRD!
SO UNCOMFORTED!
SO NEW....

Friday, October 15, 2010

In school (3rd year HS), I have...

I have my so called:
>hard-to-reach Father
>lovely and fun sisters
>awesome older sisters
>wacky and dorky brothers
>freakishly wild and fun tons of friends
>funky lola
>cool lolo
>Great teachers
>Gifted and amazing schoolmates!!

I have a crazy, fun, talented and gifted family in school!!

"Together we stand, divided we fall.. Together we climb to the top of the world."
"I'll be there for you when the rain starts to fall"
"I'll be there for you because you're there for me too!"
"Someday it's gonna make sense"
"As we go on... we remember all the times we, have together. And as our lives change, come whatever, we will still be friends forever..."
"I keep on thinking that it's NOT goodbye!"
"It's killing me to see you go after all this time..."
"And I can't breathe, without you but I have to..."


Saturday, October 9, 2010

Could it be that fairy tales do exist?

Did you know that when people appear in your dreams, they wanted to see you or they want to tell you something...Well I don't know if this is really true. Well a friend of mine once told me that dreams are sometimes the continuation of what we are thinking before we sleep....

You had been lost for so long
And this feeling I've got is so wrong.
You make me twist and turn
Which makes me look so stubborn.

I hate the way you make me feel
Sometimes it felt so unreal.
Your eyes... your smile
It makes me feel immobile.

The way you smile and the way you move
Your worth to me, you had proved
Finally! You appeared after a long wait
Gosh! It's like we're playing with fate!

Move it! Close your eyes and that smile...Zip it!
You caught me off guard every time, I admit.
So stop it and move over there
Sit back and give me some time to be more aware!

Tell me you're going to sit and stay
And remember me on my special day.
Oh! How stupid am I?
I think, you only consider me as a sister, Mr. Guy!

My hopes and insanities combined
Resulted into a feeling which is somewhat blind.
How could I ever clearly define this?
This is an infatuation I need to dismiss.

Someday, it's going to make sense to me
That someday, somehow, the truth I will see
I will find out and unravel this mystery
To be contented and to be happy.


Could it be that fairy tales do exist? Is there a happy ever after? Is there a prince charming who will rescue you from your pain and sadness? Is there really a knight and shining armor who will protect you with all his life? And is there a Prince Eric, like what Ariel in the movie Little Mermaid has,who will love you with all his heart and accept you whoever and whatever you are?
I hope there is...